Hi,
My name is Eric, Eric Mathew. I am a well-known fractional novel writer. My book – “You are only Mine,” has a million copies sold worldwide.
People usually call me – King of love.
I love to hear that, as I give love advice through my book, and it helps many to settle their love or family life. I call this a success when my readers love my book and benefit from it.
If you ask me about the girl in my life for whom I believe in true love, for whom I could able to write such a novel. Let me tell you the absolute truth. My love life is a mess, and I have a failed marriage. I may b the king of the heart for many girls, but my wife takes me as a dumbo and fake writer. I wish I could tell her how much I loved even love her.
“You are only mine,” I wrote when my wife left me after five years of relationship and then marriage. I wrote this book with an imaginary character whom I always wanted in my life. I want someone like her, whose love comforts me, and her soft hugs dry my tears. I can sense her while I write this book. How I finished that book, I even didn’t know.
However, I am writing the second part of this book, “Heaven or Hell, I’ll love you in my every life.” Whenever I try to write this story, my broken marriage and all pains from my past life tear my heart with broken glass and let my dream bleed with blooded misery. Sometimes I want to get rid of the cage of emotions that lead me nowhere else. Even though I am successful in the public eye, I still consider myself a failure, I can’t stabilize my married life, and sometimes I feel like a rose that seems very beautiful outside. Still, nobody knows there are many thrones of the pain of loneliness and insecurity which hurt me every time. I spread my fragrance worldwide, but I can’t enjoy a little bit of it. Many love me, but my heart always beats for an imaginary character in my book, which leads to my failed marriage life. I don’t know who it is, but I always sense her. She is in my breath to stay within my soul.
I want to forget everything, even this imaginary woman in my life. Thank God, recently I have started doing meditation, which leads my subconscious mind to be a bit strong to make the right decisions. Meditation has a solid and positive vibration in your subconscious mind, and it has a great power to erase everything which leads you down. This therapy worked for me as a miracle I had never felt before. Before doing meditation, I spent my days in drug addiction and sleep, and I didn’t know who I was and what I was doing and writing. I spend hours writing without thinking about anything. Now I can write well, and I feel like I am getting healed from the inside. All credit goes to meditation therapy.
It’s summer – April 2nd, 2022
Like other weekends, after I come from yoga, I finish my breakfast and sit for deep meditation. It usually takes 3-4 hours with the meditation mantra.
I faced towards my window, the cold breeze touching my skin smoothly like a loving sensation; Lily flowers filled my thirst with their sweetest smell; I felt so light and heavenly. I can feel relaxed, and after a few minutes, I can see a black screen without anything, and then my actual meditation starts from that point.
I can see a woman sitting on a stone on the river canal. Her wavy hair and her scented body smell attract me to her. I want to see her in real life, and I wonder if something is there within her that draws me to her, as a bee attracts a flower without any invitation. Her wavy brown hair looks mesmerizing when the wind blows, and I wish to decorate her hair with a beautiful flower to justify her beauty. I got near her and was a bit nervous; I didn’t know what I should call her.
Before I say anything, she turns her head toward me and gives a gentle smile.
Her smile had something which blanked my mind, and it filled my heart with lots of love. Her heavy, dreamy eyes seem like a flower petal, so beautiful, it looks like an artist draws art with their imagination; how can someone be so beautiful and so perfect? Her cheeks are blushed with a pinkish color, and she looks just like a goddess in the book. She looks like an angel. Angel is the only word that suits her, I didn’t know what I should call her, so I called her my “You are only mine” book character – Alice. She smiled and asked me, “how did you know my name,” I was astonished; I again asked her, “Is your full name Alice Taylor” she smiled again and said, Yes!
She again asked me, what else do you know about me?
I smiled and said, You are the one I have been searching for for a lifetime.
She smiled and told – I am not your book character; I am honest. I have been with you all your life, from heaven to hell.
I don’t know her. Every single word seems like she is very close to my heart; she is someone whose love I was looking for. Then she held my hand and said, “Don’t you want to see our house? I know you might have forgotten.”
Nearby the river, I see a small yet beautiful house; when I entered the house, I felt like I was like Adem, the book character, “you are only mine.” Adem loved Alice; their love was true.
She cooked for me and told me I know what you love most; I cooked pumpkin pie for you; this is your favorite. You don’t like non-veg, so we grow our plants in our backyards. She took me through our beautiful garden, with lots of flowers and vegetables. She told me, “I care for these plants all the time; I just waited for a long time and waited for you when you will come back so that we can have a nice dinner together.” her touch and her words made me feel like home, I wish I could stay there for forever. I said, yes, I am here for you and forever. As it was cold outside, she comforted me with her coat and told me she had knitted a sweater for me in my favorite color, woolen, blue and red. My eyes filled with tears. I never get so much love in my entire life. Then we talked endlessly, and she elaborated on everything I wrote in my book. Sometimes I can’t understand whether it is accurate or my imagination, whatever it is, I always want to stay with her forever, and I don’t want to be famous, I want a family with lots of love, only both is us.
I have never met any woman like her in my life; she is the one who defines me and whose love comforts me; she is the one I want for my entire life.
Then we had a great dinner at night, and then we went to sleep. In the morning, I heard some unusual sound, and it took me a long time to wake up; initially, my brain couldn’t be able to accept the fact; when I heard the sound, it sounded odd and loud, just like someone was shouting in my ear, so much noise, so much irritation, finally, I woke up.
After I woke up, I saw myself sleeping on my bed wearing a blue-red sweater, my book “you are only mine” on my head, and placed on my chest.
Initially, I need help understanding what is happening before I think about anything on this; I need to shut down the person who has been pressing the calling bell for a very long time.
I opened my door; I saw a courier for me in front of my gate. I saw a box and then brought it inside my house. Out of curiosity, I opened it and saw many photographs of many couples, even in animal form. Names were written behind.
I couldn’t be able to understand what was happening to me. So I decided to get into meditation again, but when I tried to get into meditation, I got a phone call for a media conference for my book advertisement.
I disconnected all the doorbells, switched off the phone, and sent a voice message to everyone not to call me for a few days.
I again sat in deep meditation, and I tried to connect with her, again after a few hours wait, I saw myself in front of that house, where I saw Alice; I slowly opened the door, and she smiled and told me I had born with you and for you, alas in this life I couldn’t make it as I died early. I am sorry, but you must go back to your life to live. I am here and will always wait for you; you have got a long and prosperous life, and I am always there by your side, so live your life. Don’t spoil this precious life ever. After she told me this, I don’t know if I awake from my subconscious state to my actual condition.
My own story helped me to write my next book “Heaven or Hell, I’ll love you in my every life”; this is the last book I wrote, which took nearly seven years to complete.
This is my only book whose income let me survive till my last breath.
Now I am 85 years old, and I still talk every day with my Alice; she is there for me to take care of my food and health. We talk endlessly. When does someone ask me how I could live a lonely life and still be able to write such a fantastic and realistic romance novel? I smile and share my life secret “Love is in the eyes of the beholder.” I found that love from within.